Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sobriety

I still don't smoke or drink; it's just not for me.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Genesis

Sorry for the lame title; it was the first thing to pop into my head.

In any event, I've been meaning to make a blog for a while in order to chronicle the current events of my life so that once I reach my destination, I will be able to look back at the roads that lead me there. It will be more for me than for anyone else, but feel free to lurk or what have you. I can't promise anything remotely interesting, but looking into other peoples' lives can always be somewhat entertaining at the least (hence E!, ha ha).

***If you feel the need to, you may skip this long ass post and head to the cliff notes at the bottom.

So to start this thing off, I'll talk about what it is that inspired me to start writing about my life: After 19 years of being a Christian, I no longer am one. Those that don't know me and are reading this are probably thinking "What the fuck?!?! This is some bullshit, I'm out of here!!" However, this should come as a shock to those who know me well. Those who know me well will know that I've been raised in a Christian family, gone to church all my life, played guitar for Bible Club in high school, was the VP of the same club in high school, and continued to keep in step with my beliefs by being an active member of a ministry called Campus Crusade for Christ well into my two years of college. There was no cursing, no smoking, no drinking, no fucking, and a lot of other shit that I abstained from. So for a person who has diligently lived as pious of a life as I have to no longer claim the same beliefs is a pretty big fucking deal I'd say!

The question remains: what was it that caused my shift from devoting my life to God to not being sure that I really believe that He exists? I'm not sure what it was to be honest. Some might say that I came to my senses. Others might say that I've been ensnared in the Devil's trap. Whatever it was, there are only two possible outcomes: either (1) I will come to realize that everything that I've believed and put my faith in my entire life is complete bullshit or (2) I will realize that it isn't and my faith will be increased sevenfold (see what I did there?). I can only hope to make the right choice.

In any event, this is a time for growth. A time to learn about myself and about others as much as I possibly can :D

So until next time!

P.S. There's a lot more shit to it, but it would be overkill if I tried to type it all down at once. Feel free to get at me with any questions, critiques, and/or criticisms.

***CLIFF NOTES: Fuck you, go back and read all that shit! I doubt that my other posts will be as long though (if it's any consolation, ha ha).